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feeling super emotional
stressed like fuck
with things, with what's going on, with assignments, with life
have been doing too much of thinking, i guess
i used to call suky on the phone and cry out everything when im feeling stressful
but now, i just donno who to call, who to talk to, who to cry to, who to lean on.
i have friends, great friends, but they have their stuff to deal with to.
so i might as well face my problems myself.
默默地躲在角落哭泣

truth . 事实

truth hurts, but at the same time u'll fell that something on you that you have been longing to kill it, vanishes in seconds, like it hasn't been there all this while.

i see you in my dream,
someone who i do not know, a stranger.
i was happy in tat dream,
i hope to see you in the future.
i remember that broad shoulder in that dream,
how comfy it would be to just lie on it.

im much more happier now, so fuck off and live your multiple personality disorder life.

never ending cycle

this is a post for you
you who i used to argue a lot with
you who i find somehow special
you who teases me non stop
you who somehow is the only one who knows the way to make me smile when im down
you who make me fall for you
you who hurts me a lot
u're my sweetest medicine yet also a fatal disease.

you know that i'll stay if you ask me too
i have always been super obedient when it comes to you
that was also the reason why i took up my courage to spill the beans
i was pissed at myself for obeying you even after all the things you did
i know that i would do anything for you

im still shock that i told you things i took up a lot of courage to say
it hurts myself saying those mean things too
im sorry
i regretted the moment after i clicked the enter button
yet i know it will be the best decision

it might not still be the right time for both of us
but i still believe that the right timing would come,
hope u still believe in it too.
take care

family

Lilo: 'Ohana means family, family means nobody gets left behind. Or forgotten.


sometimes parents gets up pissed, but sometimes they do not, they make us feel protected and loved.
my family isn't perfect as it seems, but it is what i've got and will cherish it.
at least it's better than some other families out there


le father don't smoke
le father don't get drunk and hit
le mother does not run away with another guy
le mother is patient 
le sisters do not argue like other siblings always do
le sisters do not gangster around like lala mui


feels happy when i can talk nicely to my father, my relationship with my father wasn't good.
i remember being very close to my father when i was a little girl, until fucking shits happen, things changes.
it's not like i hate him, i still cant imagine losing him.
things is different with my mother, i'm not really close with her when i was younger.
she's busy with her work, she's very strict with my school performance, she won't let me hang out with my friends, like N-E-V-E-R, no TV after dinner time.
but after going into uni, things changed a lot, more freedom, no more asking permissions.
and the best thing that she said to me was she believes me, that's why, she did not ask much when im out or coming home late.

Giving Up

Before you give up, think of the reason why you held on for so long- The Vow

and yea, that was the reason why i did not want to give up for 4 years. i simply believe that it is worth it, he'll be touched and we'll be happily ever after.but it's not that simple as it seems, giving up is the right decision.

How do you look at the one you love and tell yourself it’s time to walk away?- The Vow

How? i guess it's when you no longer can see urself in his eyes. he takes you for granted, talks to you in an unpleasant way. you thought he's treating you differently, because he sees you differently. NO. he thinks that you are annoying for god sakes.

he will never be replaced, that's wat i know myself.
he's the potential boyfriend material i always wanted

but it's time to let go..:')

architecture

well, as u guys may know imma architecture student who is currently studying in Taylor's University.
people may think that architecture students will have more male students than female students, it's so discriminating somehow.

is currently working on a project about spatial typologies and spatial poetics.
doing research on two buildings that are enclosed and semi-enclosed.
we chose the famous metropol parasol as our semi-enclosed space and Exploration Place as our enclosed building.

the top view of the parasol.. pretty, right?

people should really start appreciating architecture as architecture really changes the world,  in a good way of course.
buildings and environment affects ones mood. will you feel happy being in an environment where the buildings are just normal squares/boxes with dull colours or in an interesting and comfortable space?

expectations

expectations: A strong belief that something will happen or be the case in the future

every time we chat, i see hope.

not gonna set my expectations up too high, or i wonder if i should ever set expectations after what happened.

but i guess a little expectation wont hurt, right?:)

Happy April Fool! many of you should be having picnic in cemeteries now while i'm still in bed thinking to gym or not to gym. have been working out quite often, guess that's something good.

somehow feels so healthy after working out.

i used to run 2 min and feel tired, but now i can run 20-30 min..:D *clasps hand for myself

the gym instructors are also super friendly! they'll coach you when you have problems or you're working out the wrong way.

im working out in Taylor's gym. RM15 per month with free classes( zumba, yoga, boxing, etc )

it's totally affordable!   

                                                          

oh right, before i hit gym, help to support Poke A Rose, it's an online store selling QUALITY iPhone cases and it's CHEAP! and they're gonna start selling contact lenses soon. please be noted that it's NOT those cheapo lenses from those normal online shop. it's FRESHKON contact lenses.:D

like their facebook page..:) 

https://www.facebook.com/pages/Poke-A-Rose/174089062711032